brianna

Hey

I know it’s been such a long time since I have been on. I’ve had so much going on! I havent had anytime or anything and I am very sory to my buddies here at buddyslim. I’ve missed you so much! Wow……I don’t even know what to tell you all.  I guess When I think of something I will let you all know and soon.

Brianna

Why does family have to be such a flippin pain? Grrr!!!!! My mom has been making me so mad and upset lately…. And I can’t talk to her because me and my mom dont see eye to eye on ANYTHING!!!!! She keeps getting onto me about school because school will be starting soon and I dont do well in school, because I chose not to. Well whop de do! You see I have had a really bad past. I will tell it to you because I dont think you would rightfully understand the situation if I didn’t. (Dont pity me cause I dont want or need it). You see when I was 11 my brother drowned in my neighbors lake. Well I was so down and depressed. Then all the older people in my family were dying. That didnt help matters none. So when I was about 14 I started to cut myself went to counseling over it and all then I had relapses at 15. Fun…..not really. But anyway, My mom dont trust me by myself or at all. She has lack of trust issues….. And she is over protective she is so bloody annoying and hurtful. She thinks I want nothing to do with them unless it concerns me which isnt true but I am old enough to do my own thing. Annoying!!!!!!And hurtful……….Sorry Im just venting……

Hey just thought I would update y’all.

Well anyway I checked my weight earlier it said I weighed 212 YAY!!!!! lost 6 pounds. Im happy. I have been dancing around the house all day  since I seen it so utterly happy!!! Well anyway. My mom has relented and said I can run around outside but she absolutely refuses to let me ride my bike. Dang overprotectiveness. She has been a bit grumpy lately you know the kind were you ask her something and she will either snap at you or give you a sarcastic answer. Well anyway. Dad has been cool about this whole thing. I dont really want to share with them the amount of weight I lose because like this 6 pounds my mom will say that that is to much in such a short amount of time. Well I dont want to listen to that negativity. I need positive support so I look towards you my buddy slim buddies and to my other friends. Im glad I have such supportive people on my side! Well anyway I thought I would update y’all. Chow till tomorrow!

Ha! Got you interested didn’t I? Well Anyway I just spent about a hour or 2 outside shooting arrows at a target sheet.Got a big ol’ bruise on my arm cause the string! And then after I jogged around the house either 7 or 8 times….don’t really remember. It was actually quite fitting and even though I had ate supper not long before it still was rather good! Well Anyway im on here legs are aching a bit (not very much though) and Im planning on doing some steps before bed……maybe 144 or a little under I don’t know. Just depends on how I feel.

My supper was that good. My mum fried pork cutlets and baked au graten potatoes and had peas that had a bit of butter on them. I didnt eat my normal amounts I ate smaller I think. Well it was a good supper. My mums a pest though. She keeps saying that when I go out running I better not get to hot. So when I came in a little bit ago she got all mad cause “I didn’t listen.” But really I was all red in the face because I get flushed really easy. Tonight was a really good night for running!!! It was cool. Well Anyway……just thought I would update ya.

I dont know whats happened i have been working out and running and throughout the weekend playing with my little cousins and eating somewhat healthy stuff well healthier than normal but I dont know what happened I checked my weight today and it says I weigh 218! I gained 10 pounds!!!!! I dont know how or why and Im really upset because i wasnt supposed to gain I have been doing really good! Does anyone know why I would all of a sudden gain 10 pounds? Do you think it might have anything to do with my period? I truelly dont know!  Im confused. I know I dont have a plan or what not but im still doing alot more than I did! I went to my grandma’s and had a dinner with all my family and my parents had got fast food for supper last night but I have been exercising and If anything i think i should have stayed at the same weight not gone 10 pounds up!HELP!!!!!!!!!

Okay heres the thing Im eighteen and I’m still in school and live with my parents. They both work early morning till about 3. They treat me like Im 5. They don’t like this whole weight loss idea either. I called my mom earlier at work to tell her i was going out running and she said she didnt like me going out running and told me to watch the tv or something cause she wont put up with the whole exercise thing. I dont know what to do! I mean I still live under their roof so i have to do what they say. Why cant the accept the fact that im not 5 anymore? And that this is something i need and want to do……. Sometimes i dispise living with my parents because they are so “have it my way” type of people. I wanted their support on this …no i needed their support on this.What am I suppose to do? Disobey them? Why cant they just support me? Grrr…………. this is turning into a bad day.

Today was the first day I went out running. I didnt get very far mind you. And since I live so far out in the country And I dont run in the road i could only run around the house. I made it 4 times (with a few breaks). Thats horrible. Tomorrow Im gonna make it to 5 or 6. I also went up and down my stairs about 11 times and there are 11 stairs so that means 121 stairs but that only took me five minutes and my legs were feeling like bricks then! And then I went out and ran. Darn it. Now Im hungry and i just ate a cabbage salad for lunch. Well I will eat a few crackers later. I need a plan to stick to.  Cause just this going out and doing random things is odd. And im really one to change subjects alot. ^-^